Fuck It, Im on a Roll

Teeth grinding, fist clutching, words slurring. If you can't tell, nothing gets me more angry than sexism and misogyny. There is nothing more to note than the fact that I cannot possibly voice the emotion I feel when these subjects are displayed in my presence.

Other than that, I am also stating: I am over some obviously bad choices in my life. That does not go to say that I will stop making these bad decisions. I am thoroughly convinced that I won't stop making these decisions until I find another one to replace it. It's always This or that, and some shoe has to fit.

So are we logical? And then if we want and try to be, what criteria are you using to judge what is logical?

For me, it seems to be how negatively or positively they are likely to affect me, and then what they make me feel about myself. And to be honest, this makes me go home screaming sometimes. For every one step forward, there are three steps back. So what does that make us?

We are animals, and we are going to tell us what our instincts or hormones tell us to pick. When they tell us that we like to feel neglected and fight for attention, then we are going to choose the blind and the distracted. That is the way it happens, especially when you are me.

And I am tired of this cat and mouse race. All I want is a warm hand to hold.

And still, since I can't really put my emotions into words right now:

Fuck this shit.